Wednesday, February 28, 2007
i felt so dead today. well, i looked dead and i sounded dead. didnt have the mood for anything. crying takes up a lot of energy. i didnt even have the strength to talk. and i totally lost my appetite. tried eating a little during lunch and i ended up feeling like puking. my eyes are so swollen! i thought that it would be better by morning but yeah, they werent. sigh.
had mock chem SPA and bio o'lvl SPA today. both were quite okay but i dont know if i made any mistakes. surprisingly, i wasnt nervous at all. i was just... feeling dead. ya. didnt have the mood to panic. maybe u dont get what i'm saying. just dont know how to express that feeling lah. i kept wanting to cry during lessons. i dont think anyone realised anyway. managed to hold back the tears. if ppl see me crying, they'll ask why. and when that happens, i wont be able to stop. so better to control i guess. it was really tough.
anyway, well done 4/2! we made it to the nxt round of the debate! (: the debators did well! haha and thanks to those who designed the total defence posters! u won us some goodies xD
during StringE practise, i was practically playing really hard on my strings. sort of felt slightly better after that. (:
to everyone, i'm sorry for being unfriendly looking and maybe a little cold today. i didnt mean it lah. i've tried smiling but i wasnt successful most of the time... just felt really terrible. i hope u all will understand...
violet, thanks for asking yr mum to give me a lift home. :D if it werent for her, i could have be drenched in the rain.
here's some of the latest suju T pics for those suju crazy ppl out there. (:
all of them changed their hair colour! sungminnie's hair is now purplish. i was just getting used to his blonde hair =/ and heechul finally had a boyish haircut. no more long hair! hyukie cut his hair shorter too! i dont quite like that length actually. haha and i think that shindong's hair is really cute! it's like heart shaped. kangin looks kind of even more matured with that lighter hair colour and teukie looks well, kind of the same.
actually, i prefer seeing suju performing as a whole grp. not just as K.R.Y or suju T. cant wait for their nxt album!
sigh. going to miss amaths and lit lessons tmr because of the lower sec assembly programme. gah i cant afford to miss lessons! ):
-finding that lost smile ;
