because there isnt a reason to love

Saturday, March 3, 2007

After watching the video on reproduction in human. how the fetus develops in the mother's womb and stuff. i started having a different view towards life. i dont really know how to experience this feeling... i just feel that life is indeed a miracle. everyone starts off as an egg and a sperm. then slowly develop in to a ball of cells and blah blah blah. it's kind of amazing how an egg and a sperm can develop into us. it's like some kind of magic.

i argue with my mum over silly stuff and get all upset when she misunderstands me. but at the end of the day, she's still my mum. the woman who gave me a chance to be in this world. the woman who carried me for 9 months. the woman who went through so much pain when giving birth to me. from the day i was born, she took care of me and protected me. i love u mum! no matter how much we argue, u are my mum and that will never change (: if i say that i hate u, i'm just not in the right state of mind. i dont mean it at all... i'm just being impulsive and insensitive.

now i always complain that she isnt giving me enough freedom and that she's controling me too much. if i had put myself in her shoes, i would have understood her reason for doing this. like what mrs nign said, our parents took care of us from day one till now. from the time each of us were just a ball of cells. they are not ready to let go just like that. it's not easy at all. we think that we are all grown up and ready to fly. but in their eyes, we are still their babies. just like the day we were born. we have to take time to sort things out. understand each other more. this way, silly and meaningless arguements can be avoided.

throughout the whole lunch time, i kept telling ph that i am surrounded by so many miracles. i think she got super sick of hearing me say that. well, i am a miracle, u are a miracle, everyone are miracles. haha dont u think so? maybe u think that i'm crazy or sth. but i just feel that life is so beautiful. i saw many things a different way. i'm kind of glad that i got to watch that video. it helped me understand the topic better and appreaciate life more. different ppl view life in different ways. i hope that everyone gets to see the side that i'm seeing now (:

this is so beautiful. dont u think so? (:

-finding that lost smile ;