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Monday, March 12, 2007

hmmms the house is pretty quiet. but i'm getting used to it ((:

amaths tuition was kind of high today. mrs ng kept telling jokes while teaching! she's so funny and cute lah. sometimes she'll laugh at her own jokes xD whenever she jokes abt something, we'll laugh like siao. she keeps side tracking. tell us to be serious then the nxt min she'll joke again. she's so funny. haha but we got study lah.

i'm feeling much better as compared to last time. i've not thanked everyone properly yet so yeah, I would really like to take this opportunity to thank many ppl, for always being there for me. OK THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG AND WORDY ENTRY xD BEAR WITH ME ((:

I realized that without u all, there’s no me. many times, emotions control me so much. I felt so stressed. I couldn’t see the light at the other end of the road. Everything was just dark… I was lost. To an extent that I wanted to just put an end to everything. I really couldn’t find the light. I could say that it was as if I was blind. Not able to see anything at all. Just when I wanted to give up. When I thought that all hopes are gone, u all came. I couldn’t find the light so u brought it to me. I am really grateful for all the moral support u all gave to me. I’ve been suffering from mood swings from time to time. getting super emotional and all. These mood swings could last for quite some time. they affect yr , moods too. but u all didn’t isolate me, didn’t give up on me. instead, u all stood by my side and say that u’ll always be there for me. I’m indeed very very touched. I rmb someone telling me something abt internal warmth. I didn’t really get it at first. But now, I do. When u know that someone out there cares for u, u’ll just have this warm feeling in yr heart. It’s indeed a really nice feeling. I’m such a fortunate gal. I’ve experienced this warmth so many times. I used to think that no one cares for me. but u all proved me wrong. I love everyone so much! Thanks for being my stars. Shinning ever so brightly for me, letting me know that there’s always hope. Even in the darkest moments. I love u! (:

TO MY “GUAS”
When I first joined u guys, I really felt very welcomed. The way u all treated me was like as if u’ve known me for years. We’re all mostly from diff classes and it’s kind of a miracle that we could become friends. (:
ALICIA: such a bubbly gal who’s always all smiley and doing funny stuff with ph xD
ALVINA: u are a really nice gal to talk to (: thanks for welcoming me to yr house warming yeah? and advising me on how to solve probs with my mum. Haha I’m pretty sorry abt the “I’m a fairy” thingy xD
IVY: haha a really cute and comically friend. Always calling me “sonny” xD well, I don’t mind accompanying u on shopping trips. haha thanks for offering to teach me.
JO: I think that u are a really cool gal. always looking so calm and thus making me feel calm too! :D
PEI HSIN: my partner beside! Eh... thanks for always doing funny stuff just to cheer me up. I’m sorry that u have to bear with my constant mood swings and stuff. Thanks a lot!

MY STARRY FAMILY
LYNNETTE, KAILING, NISHA: it’s kind of amazing how we became so close huh? Haha StringE is fun. Mainly because u all are there! I’m really quite surprised that u all could sense my mood. Though we are from diff classes and well, different levels (haha only nisha junior is sec 3 xD), we sort of share some kind of telepathy. I’m indeed very touched by all of u. we practise together, crap abt everything, share each other’s sorrow and happiness. I love u all! Blih blah blue bleh. ((:

4E2!
CANDICE, WIDA,TABITHA, JIAYUN, BAZLIANA, FADHILAH: haha thanks for being so super super suju crazy with me! xD Candice and wida, I really enjoy going all crazy abt suju with u guys at the back. Thanks for all the the encouragement and stuff ((: candice, it's sure fun being lab partners with u ((: oh and thanks for all the stickers and photos wida! (: and thanks for being there for me mrs siwonnie! :D Fadh, my partner behind for sec 1 and 2 xD haha 4 yrs of classmates with u! though u are quite ahem ahem at times, I still love u! :D haha my only stringe friend, bazliana! It’s quite sad that I’ve never played with u before ):

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JASMINE TAN: My dearest god sis. ((: I still rmbed how u begged me to accept you as my mei xD thanks gal for always being there for me and for always lending me a listening ear. Haha jie mei telepathy! :D kind of interesting huh? We tend to do and say the same things at the same time. sometimes I don’t even need to say anything and u’ll know what’s on my mind. I really treasure this bond. (: “never to ignore and get angry at each other by listening to what others say. Always clarify misunderstandings and doubts before doing anything. trust each other.” I’ll always bear this in mind (:

JASMINE LAW: the gal that goes extreme crazy over SSC and kusano! :D haha u are one bubbly friend that makes the atmosphere really high at times xD sorry that I don’t respond to u at times. Didn’t know that u are calling me mah xD

MUMTAZ: thanks for never getting irritated at me for always borrowing yr hole puncher xD and letting me copy yr notes when I couldn’t copy finish ((:

JIAXIN: my so very funny and righteous study grp member :D I had fun studying with u, jas tan and ph. Thanks for all those crappy, study moments (:

OTHERS…
DENISE, SHIMIN, YEEHUA: omg I miss u guys so much lah! Miss the pri sch days )): though we are all in diff schs, I’m glad that we still keep in touch. I hope that all four of us will get to go out soon! Thanks gals for being there for me. Haha don’t worry denise, I rmb my promise. When I move back to bishan, I’ll walk u home whenever I can. Just like u walked me home everyday when we were in pri sch ((:

DELIA: the gal who takes her time to do stuff. And always making me wait for her. Haha we got into this sch together and live extreme near each other xD thanks for always helping me and sending me msges of encouragement. Haha and that time when I fell. Thanks a lot! I’m glad that u are ard (:

YANLIANG: u so extreme smart person! we only got to know each other last year! It’s like quite an unexpected friendship. Didn’t interact during the conference but we still ended up as friends! :D thanks for helping me with my hw and stuff. Yeah teaching such a slow person like me is terribly hard. Sorry for taking up so much of yr time.Thanks for being so extreme patient! :D oh and learn to like green tea! ((:

ROMAN: haha my so extreme supportive god bro! (: in case u didn’t know, u played a big role in bringing jas tan and I together xD well it’s mainly because of u that we became god sisters xD ok go ponder over why is it so. Btw, u still owe me something! :D and I cant wait for yr 21st bdae. Haha I feel so honoured! xD

JOOHNIAM: thanks for letting me see the different sides of life god bro! (: it’s indeed great to know a crappy fellow like u. mr, stop slacking and mug! Be a more serious guy. Haha u know what I mean. maybe u think that i dont know anything. but i do. It’s not the end of the world yet. You can do it! no matter where u go, just don’t give up!

RAIHAN: haha I love talking to you woman! :D lala u are also suju crazy! xD thanks for all the encouragement and support gal! “a single rose can be my garden. A single friend, my world.” I still rmb this! (: come on, tell me the other quote ((:

incase i missed anyone out, i'm so sorry! i cant rmb a lot now. but even if yr name isnt here, it doesnt mean that i forgot abt u. thanks a lot! ((: u all make a difference in my life (:

-finding that lost smile ;