Friday, March 9, 2007
there's so many things going on. it's like all so sudden. i dont even have the chance to adapt to everything. ok i'm going to do housework like every other day, learn how to cook and stuff. trust me. my cooking is terrible.
i'm glad that it's the last day of the term. at least i'll have some time to cool down. if not i'll end up going to sch everyday and spoiling everyone's mood. i had such a hard time trying not to cry in sch today. during lopez's lesson, i couldnt take it and my tears just came out. lucky she did not question me abt that. i kept trying to control myself. but i was unsuccessful most of the time. i went to sch prepared this time. brought my tissue along.
sigh, stringE will never be the same. i have nthing against the sec ones. it's not their fault or anything. they are just following instructions. it's just kind of a pity that we would all get spilt up and stuff. ppl just see things at the surface. they dont see how hard we work. it's like so what if i get in. nthing will be the same... and i really hope that some ppl would stop being fakes. it's like u stab someone in the back then pretend that u care a lot for that person. PLS LAH. stop trying to look good. if u think that no one knows anything, you're wrong. ppl are not blind. spare a thought for the rest k?
i've been getting emo over so many things this year. most of the problems remain well, unsolved. so it's like all accumulating. i feel as if i could just explode any moment. but i have to overcome all these stuff. i must stay strong. my friends didnt give up on me so i must not give up too. i'm really grateful to those who have always been there for me. being by my side through all my emo moments. yr support really gives me the strength to keep moving. i really cant thank all of u enough.
wida, thanks for this (:
-finding that lost smile ;
