because there isnt a reason to love

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

i've been thinking about things. and i've come up with a decision. it wasnt easy. it really wasnt. i'm going to let go. alone, i cant provide for him. i can buy him anything but i just cant spend enough time with him.

my dad found a friend that wanted him. they have never taken care of dogs before so i'm kind of worried. like whether they can handle him or not. the thing i'm most afraid of is that they might just put him aside when they realise how difficult it is to take care of a dog. i'm afraid that it was just a moment of impulse when they wanted him.

but there's a possibility that he'll be happier with them. he'll get more attention and stuff. no one in my family cares. so when i'm busy, he hardly gets any attention at all. a large part of me doesnt want to let him go. but i'm worried that he might just go mad some day. i love him a lot. that's why i must let go. i want what's best for him.

it's a painful decision... i asked them to give me until june. i need time. i cant part with him just like that...

he's like part of my life. i dont know what would i do without him. what would happen when it's time to part? i really dont know...

-finding that lost smile ;