Friday, June 8, 2007
haha ok. i shall have a second post today!
hmm mrs ng has yet to sms us. so most prob there'll be no tuition tmr? haha yay! :D ok i should be happy about tuition. but it's just that i feel so drained. i'm tired. i really am.
even if there's no tuition tmr, i dont know if i'll be allowed to go out. hmm..
somehow i feel stressed. but i dont really know what am i stressed about. just now when i went for my nap, i curled up under my blanket and hugged my bolster real tight. then the next minute, i was tearing. i fell aslp quite fast. had a dream that was a little scary. many ppl were in my dream but now i cant rmb who. i cant even rmb what the dream was about. other than there was this terrible storm and that it was scary. maybe bad experiences are meant to be forgotten? i woke up before the dream ended. boo i'm kind of curious of what was going to happen.
i dont know what's happening to me. i can just suddenly feel sad. that's why i am trying to keep myself occupied and do less stoning. i've realised that whenever i just sit and do nothing, i'll end up thinking a lot and i'll just start tearing. sometimes there's a reason but sometimes there isnt.
sigh. i've never told you before. maybe you've sensed it and maybe you didnt. i'm scared. i'm worried for you. whenever i think about the negative outcome of things, i'll just start tearing. all these are because i really care. and i dont want to lose such a special person. all i ask is that you'll take good care of yourself.
alright, i shall return to doing my homework. i can do it! :D
-finding that lost smile ;
