because there isnt a reason to love

Saturday, June 16, 2007

we went to sakae for dinner. i didnt say a word throughout dinner. she did try to talk to me. but i just couldnt say anything. no eye contact, nothing.

she was being a little too nice today. like wow, yesterday she was yelling that she'll exclude me from everything and today suddenly, you want this? you want that? ok i'm happy that she's trying to patch things. BUT. it's not the right way of doing it. after we argue, we have a cold war. dont talk and the next day, it's like nothing happened at all. start talking and blah blah but the problem is NEVER SOLVED. we dont sit down and talk about what went wrong and how to avoid such stuff in future.

sometimes i really wonder. will it kill to say sorry? i'm wrong, i apologise. i'm right, i also apologise. why? because i hate stupid cold wars. i hate arguing. i keep my mouth shut for as long as i can because i dont want to argue. ):

sigh, nvm. at least we are talking now...

[11:28 PM]

-finding that lost smile ;