Wednesday, March 12, 2008
08.03.08
went to orchard with J to collect something.
poopy! haha i thought you're 20 plus! =x
small eyes o.O
haha we watched MEET THE SPARTANS at AMK hub after that (:
it's a lame, gross and funny show at the same time xD the good thing about this movie is that we can relate to it because it's a combination of different shows (:
09.03.08
did nothing much in the morning.. haha but J came over in the afternoon! :DD he was staying over for 3 days since his parents are away on a business trip ^^
we went to the market area to alter J's pants. after that, we bought bubble tea, headed home and started mugging.
J had to rush home at like 7 plus? because he suddenly rmbed that he forgot to bring his school uniform. -.- we have orientation the next 2 days mah. i've never felt so happy fetching him to the bus stop then. because i knew that he'll be coming back :D
haha watched funny videos until 3am before going to sleep. we laughed until tired xD
10.03.08 and 11.03.08
had orientation in school (: haha it feels so good going to school with J ^^ got someone to accompany me in the bus :DD
orientation was pretty ok. glad that i got to know my classmates better uh huh (: was quite tired though by the time we got back.
slept at like 8 plus on day one of orientation. o.O
1S18! :D (plus weiting and tammy who werent present)
see i told you that my class is girls dominated xD daniel is the only guy! hahaha. my face doesnt have flour because i've already cleaned it off before they decided to take pictures. hee.
haha oh ya. i got to do the college dance with J! :DD haha although we werent really supposed to since we were from different houses xD i'm in pegasus and he's in cetus. but we did get permission from our OGLs though. :D haha they know what's going on between us so yeah xD yay college dance this time was fun fun fun! :DD
TODAY!
all of a sudden, i'm afraid to have dreams.. it's like things i dream of do come true. if it's good, i'm happy. but if it's bad, i get super scared.. two days ago, i dreamt that hazel died. and today morning, she really did ): i'm glad that J was with me then. we with her till her final breath.. she was weaker than yesterday. i thought she was dead when i checked on her in the morning. she didnt move when i tapped at her cage.. i started crying and i hid under my blanket. but when J told me that she wasnt dead yet, i cheered up a little. we quickly went to her cage and looked at her..
i saw her and i started crying again. daley was like that before he died.. her heartbeat was really fast.. just like dalely's.. and she was lying down just like dalely.. ): she tried to stand but she couldnt.. i realised that she wasnt going to make it.. we picked her up and put her on our palms for one last time. never was she this calm.. ): at about 9.35 am, she started stuggling and gasped for air. her pulse got weaker and weaker at each breath.. we knew that she's leaving already.. and at 9.36am, she took her final breath and passed away.. i seriously cried like siao can ):
it really pained me to see her struggle so much. but i was really glad that i was with her during her last lap.. my little hazel.. you'll always live in my heart.
i guess that protecting her only lead her to her death.. she's a very lively hamster and yet i didnt put her in a bigger cage because i was afraid that she'll hurt herself. i didnt want her to die the way princess did ): but now i realised that i'm wrong. i should have let her have the bigger cage, i should have let her live her life to the fullest.. i'm really sorry hazel ):
she's in the egg shaped plastic thingy..
i was greatly saddened by hazel's death.. well i was practically sad for all my hamsters' deaths ): chippy, princess, daley.. i miss all of them ): i dont deny that i'm emotional because it's the truth. i love my pets because they are my companions.. they're the ones who are with me when no one's home. it's like no matter how late i return home, i'm always the first. even at like 9 plus? i seriously feel lonely lah. now i'm really alone at home. it feels so weird ): i hate this feeling lah. ):
anyway, thank you J for cheering me up (: we went to seoul garden at bugis for lunch.
steaming balls? o.O HAHA.
played many rounds of the basketball game. haha our average for each round was 500! :DD after that, we came back to my house, rested a while and J had to leave already.. i miss you lah. it feels weird not having you around =/ and please stop scaring me ok! it's not funny lor.
fetched J to the bus stop and when i came home, i saw hazel's cage and started feeling all sad again. ): sigh, i hope that i'll get over this soon..
i've always loved having dreams at night. but now, i kind of fear them. things in my dreams do come through. familiar scenes from my dreams do occur. it might be a few days, months or even years later! =/ i'm scared ):
sigh. going to study now. i need to keep myself occupied. sorry for having such an emo post. bye ppl..
[8:19 PM]
-finding that lost smile ;
